March 10, 2009

I was down 5 lbs at my weigh in this morning. Finally, I'm moving in the right direction. I'm feeling very relaxed about it all right now. No pressure, just steadily moving in the way I should and not stressing about anything right now. It's just what I need to be doing and I'm doing it. Wish I could feel this way all the time. But of course, hormones and stress and anxiety will rear their ugly heads eventually. For now though, I'm enjoying this feeling.

March 6, 2009

The wedding is over and the vertigo is finally gone. I think I have fully recovered from both of them, but it took me awhile.

I've been out of bed and the fork has been put away for 3 days now and I'm feeling human again. Had one day there when I ate so much I truly wished that I had been able to make myself throw up. Funny that after all the years of morning sickness and daily puking that I can't just make myself throw up on demand, but I can't. That's probably a blessing! Would hate to be a binger and a purger, right?

I'm up over the 200 mark again, but what's really interesting is that after only 3 days of eating well and exercising I don't feel that fat. Those endorphins really kick in and make me feel so GOOD. I love it. Why don't I remember how good exercising and eating right make me feel when I'm in the middle of a bed and binge? That's the question of the day.