It is so good that days like today come along to help balance out the days like yesterday. Not many negative feelings going on in my head today, I'm so grateful!
1. I did a 40 minute Firm workout. Sheesh, it kicked my behind, but I did the whole thing. YAY ME!!
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2. I went wedding dress shopping with Geordan. It was so much fun to watch her face when she tried on "the one". It just lit up like Christmas. "That's it, I found it, we're done. Now, Dad hand over the credit card." It was a good day!
3. I spent 4 hours with Kevin. I don't get to spend much time with him and so it was very special to have him all to myself for so long today. We discussed politics, religion and Cisero. I always feel like I learn so much from him. My brain comes away feeling so much smarter!
I'm so grateful for my beautiful children. Each one of them is such a gift from God and I feel so privileged to be their mother. My prayers tonight will be filled with my Abundance of Gratitude for them. I am such a lucky woman!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Hard time thinking of three things today
It's been one of those days where I've had to rack my brain to come up with three good things I did today. Now if you asked me to list things that I did badly or just three really bad things I did, I could make you a list that would go on into eternity (I'm sure it probably will!) but the good things are in short supply today. So here goes nothing.
1. I went for a 60 minute walk. It hurt and I didn't want to, but I went. And when I got home I promptly lost my pedometer in the toilet. I said a bad word, I admit it. But I'm over it.
2. I cleaned the kids bathroom today. It was disgusting and I swore I wouldn't do it again, but I couldn't stand it anymore so I caved. It is all sparkly and lovely though. Gotta love that.
3. I bought Ben a Bakugon at Walmart. It made him so happy. After listening to me yell at him all morning he deserved to be happy for a moment. HMM buying someone's forgiveness, is that a good thing? Am I teaching him right principles? Make Mom really mad and after she's done yelling at you she'll take you shopping and buy you a toy. Maybe not quite what I should be going for.
So there's my three good things for the day. As you can see I've managed to get in a few negative things with the good. Isn't that usually the case. I can't ever just see the good, always gotta find the bad too. But I'm working on it. Tomorrow will be better, right?
1. I went for a 60 minute walk. It hurt and I didn't want to, but I went. And when I got home I promptly lost my pedometer in the toilet. I said a bad word, I admit it. But I'm over it.
2. I cleaned the kids bathroom today. It was disgusting and I swore I wouldn't do it again, but I couldn't stand it anymore so I caved. It is all sparkly and lovely though. Gotta love that.
3. I bought Ben a Bakugon at Walmart. It made him so happy. After listening to me yell at him all morning he deserved to be happy for a moment. HMM buying someone's forgiveness, is that a good thing? Am I teaching him right principles? Make Mom really mad and after she's done yelling at you she'll take you shopping and buy you a toy. Maybe not quite what I should be going for.
So there's my three good things for the day. As you can see I've managed to get in a few negative things with the good. Isn't that usually the case. I can't ever just see the good, always gotta find the bad too. But I'm working on it. Tomorrow will be better, right?
Monday, August 10, 2009
Three Good Things I Did today
I'd been doing some reading over the past few weeks, yes I know, what else is new. But I came across a bit of wisdom about recognizing the good things we do everyday, instead of feeling guilty about the things we don't do, or don't do right.
So I got to thinking about that. You know, I've written in gratitude journals, finding something to be grateful for everyday. I've made "to do" lists everyday, I've blogged, written in a regular journal, posted with my Weight Watchers friends, and written on Facebook, Hotmail, etc. I've purged my entire life with a therapist.
I read my scriptures, my Ensign, pray, go to the Temple and keep the commandments and my covenants.
Even doing all these things, my life seems to revolve around all the things I don't do or that I don't do right.
So I'm going to start recognizing the things I DO, everyday. All the things I accomplish, no matter how small, and all the things I DO RIGHT!! I know I do them, I just don't recognize them. So I'm going to start. Want to join me? Just three things that I do right everyday.
Here's todays Three Good Things:
1. I put on my pedometer and went for a walk for 60 minutes. Listened to some good music and came home feeling like a million bucks. YAY for walking!
2. I balanced my checkbook.
3. I cleaned my entire kitchen, including the fridge and floors. It's all sparkly. I love it when my kitchen is clean.
Feeling good about those three things.
So I got to thinking about that. You know, I've written in gratitude journals, finding something to be grateful for everyday. I've made "to do" lists everyday, I've blogged, written in a regular journal, posted with my Weight Watchers friends, and written on Facebook, Hotmail, etc. I've purged my entire life with a therapist.
I read my scriptures, my Ensign, pray, go to the Temple and keep the commandments and my covenants.
Even doing all these things, my life seems to revolve around all the things I don't do or that I don't do right.
So I'm going to start recognizing the things I DO, everyday. All the things I accomplish, no matter how small, and all the things I DO RIGHT!! I know I do them, I just don't recognize them. So I'm going to start. Want to join me? Just three things that I do right everyday.
Here's todays Three Good Things:
1. I put on my pedometer and went for a walk for 60 minutes. Listened to some good music and came home feeling like a million bucks. YAY for walking!
2. I balanced my checkbook.
3. I cleaned my entire kitchen, including the fridge and floors. It's all sparkly. I love it when my kitchen is clean.
Feeling good about those three things.
Friday, July 17, 2009
What I've Learned in 4 months
Well, here I am, back at last. And here's what I've learned about myself.
I CAN LOSE WEIGHT!!! It's easy, no problem. And here's what else I've learned about myself.
I CAN'T KEEP IT OFF!!!! It's true, I can't.
I tried HCG in April. I lost 17 pounds in 20 days. It was amazing. And I felt so good, so skinny and wonderful, physically and emotionally. Then I stopped taking the HCG, had some kind of family drama, wound up spending a week in bed and gained 10 pounds back. Go figure!
So here's the conclusion I've drawn.
My issue isn't really losing weight. My issue is how to cope with life without sitting in my bed and eating. If I can learn how to do that, then when I lose weight I'll keep it off. Simple, huh? Yeah right!
So in the meantime, until I figure out my crazy life, I rejoined Weight Watchers. Going to the meetings this time which has been kind of fun. I'm losing really slow, but the slower the better cause it gives me a chance to figure out this mental issue. I have so many, what's one more!
Been doing a lot of soul searching, lots of praying. Of course I know the answer lies in the power of God, I just need to figure out how to fully access that power in my life. But I'm working on it. I have hope for the first time in a long time. Nothing quick is going to fix this. So I'm in it for the long haul.
And the most important thing I've learned is that no matter what I weigh, no matter what I can or can't do, no matter how many social events I attend or don't attend, no matter what!!!, God loves me and I am of great worth to him. That's all that really matters in the end, isn't it?
I CAN LOSE WEIGHT!!! It's easy, no problem. And here's what else I've learned about myself.
I CAN'T KEEP IT OFF!!!! It's true, I can't.
I tried HCG in April. I lost 17 pounds in 20 days. It was amazing. And I felt so good, so skinny and wonderful, physically and emotionally. Then I stopped taking the HCG, had some kind of family drama, wound up spending a week in bed and gained 10 pounds back. Go figure!
So here's the conclusion I've drawn.
My issue isn't really losing weight. My issue is how to cope with life without sitting in my bed and eating. If I can learn how to do that, then when I lose weight I'll keep it off. Simple, huh? Yeah right!
So in the meantime, until I figure out my crazy life, I rejoined Weight Watchers. Going to the meetings this time which has been kind of fun. I'm losing really slow, but the slower the better cause it gives me a chance to figure out this mental issue. I have so many, what's one more!
Been doing a lot of soul searching, lots of praying. Of course I know the answer lies in the power of God, I just need to figure out how to fully access that power in my life. But I'm working on it. I have hope for the first time in a long time. Nothing quick is going to fix this. So I'm in it for the long haul.
And the most important thing I've learned is that no matter what I weigh, no matter what I can or can't do, no matter how many social events I attend or don't attend, no matter what!!!, God loves me and I am of great worth to him. That's all that really matters in the end, isn't it?
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
March 10, 2009
I was down 5 lbs at my weigh in this morning. Finally, I'm moving in the right direction. I'm feeling very relaxed about it all right now. No pressure, just steadily moving in the way I should and not stressing about anything right now. It's just what I need to be doing and I'm doing it. Wish I could feel this way all the time. But of course, hormones and stress and anxiety will rear their ugly heads eventually. For now though, I'm enjoying this feeling.
Friday, March 6, 2009
March 6, 2009
The wedding is over and the vertigo is finally gone. I think I have fully recovered from both of them, but it took me awhile.
I've been out of bed and the fork has been put away for 3 days now and I'm feeling human again. Had one day there when I ate so much I truly wished that I had been able to make myself throw up. Funny that after all the years of morning sickness and daily puking that I can't just make myself throw up on demand, but I can't. That's probably a blessing! Would hate to be a binger and a purger, right?
I'm up over the 200 mark again, but what's really interesting is that after only 3 days of eating well and exercising I don't feel that fat. Those endorphins really kick in and make me feel so GOOD. I love it. Why don't I remember how good exercising and eating right make me feel when I'm in the middle of a bed and binge? That's the question of the day.
I've been out of bed and the fork has been put away for 3 days now and I'm feeling human again. Had one day there when I ate so much I truly wished that I had been able to make myself throw up. Funny that after all the years of morning sickness and daily puking that I can't just make myself throw up on demand, but I can't. That's probably a blessing! Would hate to be a binger and a purger, right?
I'm up over the 200 mark again, but what's really interesting is that after only 3 days of eating well and exercising I don't feel that fat. Those endorphins really kick in and make me feel so GOOD. I love it. Why don't I remember how good exercising and eating right make me feel when I'm in the middle of a bed and binge? That's the question of the day.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
February 11, 2009
I'm still buzzing this morning from my day yesterday. Upgrading from Kindle 1 to Kindle 2 will do that to me, I guess. Thank you's again to my dear husband who agreed to buy me a Kindle 2 for my birthday, instead of the much cheaper sewing machine I'd originally asked for! I'm sure I didn't need the new Kindle, but hey, sometimes wants count, right?
I woke up at 4:00am this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. I kept replaying my today's to-do list in my mind. ARGGHHHH!!! I hate it when that happens.
Fortunately, I'm feeling pretty good, not dragging yet. I decided last minute that I needed to run to the grocery store after I dropped Ben off at school. Wondered why, when I got halfway there and it started snowing and blowing like crazy. Said a little prayer for safety and carried on.
The scale is a friend this morning, I'm down 3 lbs since I started my blog. YAY me!! But really, the thanks goes to my Heavenly Father who has blessed me with strength and courage. I'm grateful to Him for His tender mercies today. Prayer is the key, I'm sad that it has taken me so long to figure that out, but so grateful that I finally did.
I woke up at 4:00am this morning and couldn't go back to sleep. I kept replaying my today's to-do list in my mind. ARGGHHHH!!! I hate it when that happens.
Fortunately, I'm feeling pretty good, not dragging yet. I decided last minute that I needed to run to the grocery store after I dropped Ben off at school. Wondered why, when I got halfway there and it started snowing and blowing like crazy. Said a little prayer for safety and carried on.
The scale is a friend this morning, I'm down 3 lbs since I started my blog. YAY me!! But really, the thanks goes to my Heavenly Father who has blessed me with strength and courage. I'm grateful to Him for His tender mercies today. Prayer is the key, I'm sad that it has taken me so long to figure that out, but so grateful that I finally did.
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